Saturday, January 21, 2006
So, it's all over.
The drama. The pain.
I'm leaving the homestay family. Admittedly because it's like staying at home, only with a different family. There's too much at stake, to be having the same responsibilities when I shouldn't.
And the reasons of the opposition are mainly ridiculous, but it's basically a matter of culture versus practicality, and when in another country, the guest should be the one making deference to those in the host country. I've done that most of the time, but in the end, it seems that
"seikatsu wa chigaimasu" (the lifestyle is different). And that's that. I return to New York thinking that there are ways in which I can make my own lifestyle more effective and clean and, even though I won't have the opportunity of spending the next semester with the same host family, I feel that next semester holds great opportunities in refining what I've learned from the host family and over break. In sum, I guess I'm glad that everything's over and that I can live the next couple of weeks without the muttering of dissatisfaction . . .
. . . although I think that practicality should rule over culture basically because it's more effective that way.
I won't talk about that anymore.
Anyway, I'm leaving back for New York on 2/5. I'll miss everyone here in Tokyo, but I realize that I'll come back very soon to a campus that's far better than the current one (Ichigaya). My study abroad program had a party today to celebrate the semester's end --- before the storm which is called "finals" --- and had a blast. I heard the others speak Japanese and that was really a rare event. I don't find myself speaking as much Japanese as I should but hearing the others made me think that I definitely should improve my speaking over the break and that could mean taking classes with work and hockey clinics in between.
Don't know what that could mean except that I could be a freakin' workaholic.
Don't you ever have those days where you just need to just sit back and watch things happen as you just . . . vegetate?
I want to enjoy my life as everyone else does, but . . . it seems that life is going much faster than I think.
Two of my friends are on the brink of graduating and entering law school.
One is moving to another campus.
Others are busy in different colleges, working part- or full-time, or simply "finding the meaning of life," whatever that means.
So that means I really have to hold onto the friends whom I now have.
You, who are reading this, are one of them.
It is a compliment. If you're reading this, you are absolutely wonderful.
posted @ 1/21/2006 12:01:00 AM
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